what do i have to do to make you take the hint?
I didn't think we were particularly sexually compatible, and there was nothing else particularly about you that made me desperately want to see you again.
if you come up tomorrow night i will not pick you up from the station. so don't bother calling me.
hope your nipple's ok, keep it clean won't you =S
i didn't kiss you because i didn't know what the hell was happening..i thought i was allowed to stay another night and it was just like you were pushing me away...which evidently, was correct.
These are the lyrics looping in my head right now. Yes, it's off *that* playlist. (I'm very proud of that playlist.) Limewire it if you can - it's called "Take It Easy (Love Nothing)" by Bright Eyes.
first with your hands, then with your mouth. A downpour of sweat, damp cotton clouds; I was a fool, you were my friend. We made it happen.
You took off your clothes, left on the light - you stood there so brave, you used to be shy. Each feature improved, each movement refined, and eyes like a showroom...
Now we're spreading out the blankets on the beach. That weatherman's a liar, he said it'd be raining - but it's clear and blue as far as I can see.
Left by the lamp right next to bed, on a cartoon cat pad, she scratched with a pen, "Everything is as it's always been. This never happened.
"Don't take it too bad, it's nothing you did, just once something dies you can't make it live. You're a beautiful boy, you're a sweet little kid, but I am a woman..."
So lay back down, wrap myself up in a sheet. And I must have looked like a ghost cause something frightened me; and since then I've been so good at vanishing.
Now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth. Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me. She'll probably feel cheap, but i'll just feel free (and a little bit empty).
Now, it isn't so hard to get close to me. There'll be no arguments, we'll always agree: and i'll try and be kind, but i'll ask you to leave: we'll both take it easy.
If you stay too long inside my memory, I will wrap you in a song tied to a melody. And I'll keep you there so you can't bother me.
~~~
so far i haven't acted like *too* much of a cunt.
i'm desperately trying to keep it that way. but it's getting harder and harder.
i made it clear when you came up here that we weren't together yet, we were just going out for a night in GY. this we did. we then got horrendously drunk and had very noisy, very public sex that went on for quite a while (isn't speed God's own drug.) In the morning, as is usual for this sort of thing, once the clothes go on the distance grows. You didn't even let me kiss you before you got on the train. Well, that's that, thinks I, and hobbles off back to my car. (I wasn't joking, my cervix is actually bruised. Along with my shoulderblade, clavicle, neck and goodness knows what else.)
And then you start texting me, and I start to feel really bad... oh dear, what have I done now?
So no, sadly, I don't think it's going to happen. You're welcome to come up Thursday, me and a couple of mates are going to a gig in Norwich but I sure as hell won't introduce you as my girlfriend. And you're not staying over.
Sorry about this all =|
x
You're welcome to, although the commute to Kent might be a bit of a bind every day.
And you can come any time tomorrow, I'll probably be asleep til about two but I'll leave my phone on loud, so it should wake me up. Call me when you're passing through Beccles, and I'll be at Lowie station to pick you up.
I ought to tell my parents you're coming really. Lol!
Eee i'm excited now =D
xx
x
apologies again for just............well yeah, you know.
also, what is the best time for me to come tomorrow?
i've been playing with my cousins all morning and i think they've broken my laptop............great.
xxx
sorry again, i like revelling in good things y'see, and then i want them to be infinite....... i'm a kid.
But it's ok, because I'm not the only one who refuses to grow up and get some musical taste =D
I've seen them too, about 2 years ago at Brixton. I thought they were bloody brilliant. Death Cab is one of the very few bands I love that I've yet to see and i can't wait :D
Why an apology? What have I done now? I keep telling you, I don't keep to any sort of routine at all. I'm not what you'd call an emotional cripple under any circumstances, but I do try to keep a reality check most of the time (I fail miserably, but that's beside the point.)
so CALM DOWN STOP WORRYING AND FOR GODS SAKE WHATEVER YOU DO DO NOT BRING A REMOVALS VAN
lol.
It's cute that you totally haven't mastered the art of being elusive and treating me mean to keep me keen. Good job I have eh.
x
you owe me an apology... i care for you and you're mean:[
x
www.myspace.com/normalfornorfolk, the song Emos At The Forum.
Fall Out Boy and Death Cab For Cutie? You should get a haircut and a job my beauty!
=D
and you can stay as long as you like, but I do have work Saturday afternoon from 2 til half 7. You're welcome to wander round Norwich while I'm there or i'll drop you off at the train station...
and WHEN WILL YOU LEARN THAT I AM NOT WELDED TO THE PHONE OR THE COMPUTER?!
jesus, i dread to think what you'll be like when i'm in thailand. I'm not even taking my phone.
And are you on any meds at the moment? I only ask because there's quite a burgeoning market for prescriptions around here, I can sell diazepams, Ritalin or modafinil two for a fiver or temazepam fiver each. And obv I'll give you some money out of that.
xxx
hope you're ok,
xx
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
i'm your 'missus' now huh? :).
<3xx
i quite fancy working in the ambulance crew, so could i have a uniform for that? ah actually, anything free is thumbs up with me.
oh and, how long d'ya reckon you'll be able to put up with my company for? deciphered meeeeans - can i stay 2 nights? or will you be working? tell me, tell me.
the 'sluice'? sounds tempting;).
lovexxxx
ps - i dislike 'goldie lookin chain' therefore, you can't like them:p
lol @ me.
there is still a random shetland pony in my back garden.
and i'm working as usual tomorrow night, it's just tonight I thought I probably wouldn't be able to cope with staying up all night and not killing some poor dear by accident. Always thinking of other people, that's me.
although you're perfectly welcome to come and keep me company on the ward, i'll lend you a uniform and you can pretend to be a bank nurse and just shag me in the sluice all night
=D
xx
i'm off out now, have a goodly day.
ssssssh with the scaredness, you wimp.
xxxx
ps - you like goldie lookin chain? christ...
Amy has a Tamagotchi with her girlfriend, it's their baby substitute.
She left it at her house all night and it shat itself.
This makes her the new Kate McCann.
(still scared)
lol
nighty night
xxxx
