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17 April 2008 @ 12:25 am

what do i have to do to make you take the hint?
I didn't think we were particularly sexually compatible, and there was nothing else particularly about you that made me desperately want to see you again.
if you come up tomorrow night i will not pick you up from the station. so don't bother calling me.
hope your nipple's ok, keep it clean won't you =S

Current Music: corinne bailey rae - put your records on
14 April 2008 @ 12:49 am
...admittedly i'm still crying half an hour after.   nice.
14 April 2008 @ 12:13 am
after reading those lyrics,  i'm now in tears..

i didn't kiss you because i didn't know what the hell was happening..i thought i was allowed to stay another night and it was just like you were pushing me away...which evidently,  was correct.

These are the lyrics looping in my head right now. Yes, it's off *that* playlist. (I'm very proud of that playlist.) Limewire it if you can - it's called "Take It Easy (Love Nothing)" by Bright Eyes.

first with your hands, then with your mouth. A downpour of sweat, damp cotton clouds; I was a fool, you were my friend. We made it happen.
You took off your clothes, left on the light - you stood there so brave, you used to be shy. Each feature improved, each movement refined, and eyes like a showroom...
Now we're spreading out the blankets on the beach. That weatherman's a liar, he said it'd be raining - but it's clear and blue as far as I can see.

Left by the lamp right next to bed, on a cartoon cat pad, she scratched with a pen, "Everything is as it's always been. This never happened.
"Don't take it too bad, it's nothing you did, just once something dies you can't make it live. You're a beautiful boy, you're a sweet little kid, but I am a woman..."
So lay back down, wrap myself up in a sheet. And I must have looked like a ghost cause something frightened me; and since then I've been so good at vanishing.

Now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth. Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me.  She'll probably feel cheap, but i'll just feel free (and a little bit empty).
Now, it isn't so hard to get close to me. There'll be no arguments, we'll always agree: and i'll try and be kind, but i'll ask you to leave: we'll both take it easy.
If you stay too long inside my memory, I will wrap you in a song tied to a melody. And I'll keep you there so you can't bother me.


13 April 2008 @ 11:44 pm
you've never been played before which makes this all the worse...
so far i haven't acted like *too* much of a cunt.
i'm desperately trying to keep it that way. but it's getting harder and harder.

i made it clear when you came up here that we weren't together yet, we were just going out for a night in GY. this we did. we then got horrendously drunk and had very noisy, very public sex that went on for quite a while (isn't speed God's own drug.) In the morning, as is usual for this sort of thing, once the clothes go on the distance grows. You didn't even let me kiss you before you got on the train. Well, that's that, thinks I, and hobbles off back to my car. (I wasn't joking, my cervix is actually bruised. Along with my shoulderblade, clavicle, neck and goodness knows what else.)
And then you start texting me, and I start to feel really bad... oh dear, what have I done now?
So no, sadly, I don't think it's going to happen. You're welcome to come up Thursday, me and a couple of mates are going to a gig in Norwich but I sure as hell won't introduce you as my girlfriend. And you're not staying over. 
Sorry about this all =|
10 April 2008 @ 11:35 pm
see you super soon:),

n'night xx
10 April 2008 @ 10:53 pm
a removals van is what you have when you're moving house... ie. lesbians always want to move in with each other by the second date!
You're welcome to, although the commute to Kent might be a bit of a bind every day.
And you can come any time tomorrow, I'll probably be asleep til about two but I'll leave my phone on loud, so it should wake me up. Call me when you're passing through Beccles, and I'll be at Lowie station to pick you up. 

I ought to tell my parents you're coming really. Lol!

Eee i'm excited now =D
Current Music: someone's drip bleeping...
10 April 2008 @ 07:21 pm
pps - staying for 2 nights would be awesome,  but don't want to overstay my welcome.........so yeah,  tell me to bugger off when you're bored of me:).
10 April 2008 @ 03:12 pm
ps - i still don't know what a sodding 'removal van' is lol..   can you just spell it out for me?

10 April 2008 @ 02:58 pm
christ i'm so fucking melodramatic so i'm gunna go and sleep it off..

apologies again for just............well yeah,  you know.

also,  what is the best time for me to come tomorrow?

i've been playing with my cousins all morning and i think they've broken my laptop............great.


sorry again,  i like revelling in good things y'see,  and then i want them to be infinite.......   i'm a kid.
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Current Music: burn your life down - tegan and sara